one step up and two steps back

http://www.lyricsdepot.com/bruce-springsteen/one-step-up.html

"Woke up this morning my house was cold
Checked out the furnace she wasn't burnin'
Went out and hoped in my old Ford
Hit the engine but she ain't turnin'
We've given each other some hard lessons lately
But we ain't learnin'
We're the same sad story that's a fact
One step up and two steps back
...
When I look at myself I don't see
The man I wanted to be
Somewhere along the line I slipped off track
I'm caught movin' one step up and two steps back"

I've had the above song stuck in my head today, in both its Springsteen and Chesney forms. A sad soulful wail... from either of them. Bleak and full of regret. Effort and futility.

"...one step up and two steps back..."

I let these things stress me and dampen my spirit as if any of this will really matter one hundred years from now. My presence and effort while here on this planet will have gone unnoticed, and it's all for naught. Even words written on this page will have faded. But all that is... is the here and now, and no matter the outcome the task must be done though it may lack, faded figure fade to black.

"...one step up and two steps back..."

Regards,

cheer_dad